Saturday, December 19, 2009

Let me go

Why did you let me go?

Wasn't I a big fool? To not see how much you loved me? Your eyes were a testimony to the brightly flickering love your heart contained for me. I ridiculed your love. I guess I took your love for granted. Like the ever punctual sun which rises at daybreak without fail. I overlooked the fact that clouds can clog the sun rays to streak through and give rise to perpetual darkness. Worse still, polar sky doesn't see advent of dawn as sun sinks below the horizon during winter solstice.You were my eyes, providing rose hued perspective to perceive the beauty of the world. And there I was, blind to even something right in front of me and pristinely visible, as the unconditional love you showered on me.

You didn't for once hesitate to entrust your heart---the vitality of existence, to me. But there I was, pinching the very same heart which loved me.

I was on a mission to lament on your every move, trying to pick out errors and reproaching at your otherwise too perfect character. I made it a point to torment you, and make your life a virtual inferno. You tolerated stoically saying not one word against me. You overlooked all my mistakes and held nothing against me. There was not a wee bit decrement in your irrefragable love for me.

I openly showed my growing disinterest towards you. I deliberately dissented with you,argued at every possible word you said and quarrelled over trivial matters. Anything to show that you were unwelcome now and that I needed you no longer. All those times, you stood mum and submissive, supporting my ridiculous point of view though you knew I was being illogical.

I did see you when you were alone and all by yourself, you would cry heartfully wondering at what might have possibly gone wrong with our relationship. Wasn't it just yesterday that I promised my love will be eternal, and will stand the test of time? And today I forget my own promise I made to you.I saw your eyes replete with tears unable to see my love diminish for you. You would blame yourself,ascribing my change in behaviour as your own fault rather than sensibly reasoning to my own sadism. Watching you shed tears, I would smirk that my whole plan to get rid of you was working.

You were there for me, when I went on risking my life seeking precarious adventures and chasing after false vanity.

When I ventured into the sea of storm, you were my harbour keeping me safe after ship-wreck.

When I was gasping for air, drowning in the dark waters, you were my breath and respite.

Eventually you saw that I was no longer happy with you. It disheartened you to finally come to terms that you were not the one for me. You realised that the relationship has gone far beyond the threshold that anyone could mend. You stepped back, retreated far away from my sight and from your heart-of-hearts wished that I find true love and everlasting happiness elsewhere

But now i ask you ....why did you let me go?

Even after all these years, I could not find anyone who would selflessly love back as you could. You realised that you were not the one for me. But you know what? I was not the one for you. I was a fool to reject your love

Now, I want to come to you, plead you to forgive me and accept me back. But then it dawns upon me, that it's too late. Our relationship has really gone beyond the threshold that anyone can mend.

It was a foolish thing to have you let me go. To be the reason of my own downfall. I conspired to free myself from the shackles of your protective arms. I thought it was your heart that I crushed. But it was my own heart that I stabbed and now it is bleeding profusely.


  1. OH mY dear GOD!!!
    I m sooooooo in luv wth ur writing............
    keep it up!!!

  2. beautifully written... you have a gift!

  3. beautifully done!likd da use of metaphors and the parallels drawn!!!

    da descriptions of da comparisons could have been a bit more getting the reader to imagine the whole scene....about how heart wrenching the situation is...!

    Not that this is not good! This is wonderful! With the kinda vocab u hav and given the gift of an active imagination, your work is always a joy to read! :)

    keep at it!

  4. I feel touched by whAT I read...

  5. touche really well written.One has to actually feel these emotions from very close to come up with something like this..this is a gem of a piece

  6. I happen to read your blog completely..You really express your thoughts very well..Looking forward to read your new posts..:) :)

  7. Hey! a lot of intesity there! It feels sad, whatever happened. Take care!

    Well written!

  8. I am able to connect with your every word you have written in this post, not just because i have been through this, I wanted to make her feel this the same way you have written.
    it was so pure, it was so powerful, i never got a reason for the break up, your words made it clear, might be, she wanted me to go.

  9. i have no words to tell you how much this touched me .. wish it never happen to my loved ones !

  10. very touching. seriously... such posts sure bring tears to eyes. lovely work. keep it up :)


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